THE AWAKENING BY SONNY CARROLL

THE AWAKENING BY SONNY CARROLL

Edited by Me (it was much longer full one at http://www.davidstanleybell.com/wisdom/story-the-awakening.htm)

There comes a time in your life when you

finally get it … When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks

and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out “ENOUGH! Enough

fighting and crying or struggling to hold on.” And, like a child quieting

down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or

twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes, you begin

to look at the world from a new perspective. This is your awakening.

You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or

someone, to change, or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping

over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren’t always

fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of

“happily ever after” must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is

born of acceptance.

So you begin making your way through the “reality of today” rather

then holding out for the “promise of tomorrow.” You realize that much

of who you are, and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a

result of all the social conditioning you’ve received over the course of a

lifetime.

And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about:-how you

should look and how much you should weigh,

– what you should wear and where you should shop,

– where you should live or what type of car you should drive,

– who you should sleep with and how you should behave,

– who you should marry and why you should stay,

– the importance of bearing children or what you owe your family,

Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you

begin re-assessing and re-defining who you are and what you really believe in.

And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have

practiced, to begin with.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will love,

appreciate or approve of who or what you are… and that’s OK… they are

entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact

that you will never be a size 5 or a “perfect 10″…. Or a perfect human

being for that matter… and you stop trying to compete with the image inside

your head or agonizing over how you compare. And, you take a long look at

yourself in the mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same

unconditional love and support you give so freely to others.

Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.

Then you learn about love and relationships- how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you

to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don’t always say what they

mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally, and that not

everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it’s not always

about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place

blame for the things that were done to you or weren’t done for you. And you

learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive

emotions it spawns; anger, jealousy, and resentment.

You learn how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human

frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing

power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a

friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that

are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at

smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of

entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect

certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with

confidence and grace. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you

choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake. Then you

learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility and the importance of

setting boundaries and learning to Say NO. You learn that you don’t know all

the answers, it’s not your job to save the world and that sometimes you just

need to Let Go.

You learn that life isn’t always fair and

you don’t always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing

every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things

happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God… but merely

a random act of fate.

And you stop looking for guarantees because you’ve learned that the only thing

you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you’ll

learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is

the great robber baron of all time – FEAR itself. So you learn to step right

into and through your fears because to give into fear is to give away the

right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a

self-fulfilling prophecy and you learn to go after what you want and not to

squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending

doom.

Finally, with courage in your heart and

with God by your side you take a stand, you FAKE a deep breath and you begin to

design the life you want to live as best as you can.

A word about the Power of Prayer:

In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed, not

for the answers to my prayers or for material things, but for me

“God” to help me find the strength, confidence, and courage to

persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.

Remember this:-

You are an expression of the Almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you.

Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you.

 

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